A Morning Rant

Gearing up for a driving lesson even though I am thoroughly exhausted! I've taken up yoga and all things Namaste like. Channeling my chi and all that.

Its been a busy/weird week, on the one hand I've been focused on getting some things done all the while letting other shit slide. Time to regroup and focus on the big things and let the little things slide. I've realised you really cant get your hopes up too high and recognition for hard work should come naturally and should never be forced. If you're doing things/volunteering your time/effort/skill just to get something in return then you are doing it all wrong.

This week I've also learnt that you can't want something for someone, sometimes you just have to let people find their own way, be a motivator but never a pusher in a negative way. I've also learnt that when people do you wrong you might be desperate to let them have it, desperate to spew and hurl your rehearsed lines of why they have you. I guess we are all looking for closure. Find closure in yourself, write down how you feel, rip up the paper and let it go!

Life is too short not to be brave.

My Saturday Went A Little Like This

An evening rant

I am in a good mood, and good moods can be hard to fully immerse yourself in. I've found that I don't quite mind falling as long as I get right back up. That's the beauty of perseverance. The beauty to keep on going.

In my quest to remove toxic relationships from my life I've also realised that its of course so much more easier said than done, however I'm very excited to keep trying new ways to evolve and grow. Sometimes you might just need to dive into a new project, or you might need to distract yourself a little. Your happiness is paramount and I've decided to find my happy.... by any means necessary.

This week I'm employing the power of intense concentration (lol, very hard for someone with my attention span) and also the power of patience. I can't change people and I can't force situations. What I can change is my attiude towards the way I view the 'negatives'.

Accept your flaws, own your mistakes, forgive yourself and get right back up when life deals you a knock out blow.

Have a great week!!!

An evening Rant

'' A lot of the time, the pain and the anguish can be minimized when the truth is revealed in the first instance''

I am officially ill and bed ridden....for now. I'm dedicating my evening to working! I've turned my bedroom into a sanctuary and my mini office. It's been an average week and the need to just 'live' has never been more necessary. Sometimes I guess going into auto pilot isn't so bad. And neither is recognising that its very much okay not to be okay. Numb yourself until you feel able to keep on going.

Anyhows, its birthday season! I'm so excited for the weekend and celebrating everybody's birthdays: Bestfriends, sister, nephew! I definitely wont be in auto pilot, but this cold needs to flee my body.

Have a great weekend guys! Remember : Fall 7 times stand up 8!

NEW HURR BABY!

I'm loving my new hair ! Info in the picture,curly hair don't care!

SPEED DATING!

I will try anything once. Literally. Of course speed dating was on my bucket list of things to do before I turn 25! There's lots of speed dating events to go to in London and once I'd coerced a friend to go with me it was on. Whilst I wasn't on the hunt for true love I was curious to see what these types of events would be like and if the talent would be worth it.

My friend and I were nervous, but cue the wine and dutch courage we were ready to have a good time and boy did we meet some men! The girls stayed seated and the men would rotate seats after every 4 minutes. The conversation generally started with the banal niceties and 'what do you do?' and 'what are your hobbies'. Nobody I would really consider seeing again although one brave soul did put his number in my phone whilst it lay on the table!

Getting back into the dating scene or even just getting started on dating can be daunting, speed dating can be a bit of an ego boost and really just a reminder that it shouldn't be all that frightening talking to someone new or a stranger in a bar. Even just as a girls night out, I would recommend it, it was fun and different. 5 stars.....now I'm off to check off my bucket list!

Home girl and at the speed dating event!

Gym Grind: Still keeping on

My winning story on Cazart.com! ''BABY STEPS'' by Helen A Ampofo, Enjoy!!!!

We fell in love on the coldest day November had ever seen. It was the most cliché of stories. The most predictable of events, about as banal as love gets. It was one of those stories, one of those oh so common love stories. His stare pierced into my soul and if love had a smell I could just about feel it fill my lungs. I did warn you, cliché. 

I stared back, of course I did. We were falling in love it would be rude of me not to participate. After years of friendship it had come to this. We had been reduced to a scene straight out of a terrible mills and boon adaptation. I'd assumed love would occur in the most dramatic of ways that it would take me by surprise. I thought it would manifest itself much like an earthquake or a terrible explosion. Instead love came as a soft knock. Moved to tears I accepted the stretched hand. How long we had been standing on that bridge I would never know, how long I had loved him? An eternity, an eternity and a day. 

Fingers entwined we headed east. Embarking on a journey so unexpected I gripped his hand tighter. I'd killed her; he would forgive me though wouldn't he? It is the most widely accepted notion that love is kind is it not? That to love someone is to love them to the point of incurable madness. 

With steely resolve I decided to banish the thoughts. The patter of small feet rang in my ears. I had never heard them before but I knew what they sounded like. Baby steps that would never be heard. I had killed her. 

Well Hello There April

According to blogspot, I can't upload anymore pictures because I'm over the limit? Lame! I love blaquebread and I miss blogging! I want my sparkle back. Its been an interesting couple of months to say the least! I'm still trying to nail this healthy living shit, I'm attempting to date (Epic fail) lol and I'm trying to write again.

Somebody told me recently that I looked happier and I agree....to a degree, I was carrying a lot of baggage, baggage I'd carried for a very long time. Letting go of people, past relationships and habits can be liberating but still very painful. After all, you can get used to a certain type of pain, it almost becomes an ally.

However its important to recognise when something no longer serves a purpose in your life. Forgive yourself and move on. Moping around is for victims, fall 7 times stand up 8. I rarely take my own advice but I know that life is too short to be anything but happy so whenever the going gets tough I give myself a pep talk and keep it moving. 

Happy April Lovers

The Holiday was.........

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

I know I know, we're 20 days into the new year and I'm only just saying hello. Forgive me! I entered the new year very peacefully at home after dinner and drinks with the bff! I didn't make resolutions as such even though I don't think there's anything wrong with making resolutions. Instead I wrote down 25 things I want to accomplish this year...... blogging more of course being on the list but we'll see how that goes.

One exciting thing I'm trying to achieve this year is BLACKBREAD THE STORE. Nothing major just a little online shop selling all fun knick knacks, its still very early days but if I can pull it off I'd be so excited. 

I'm on yet another weight loss journey and I'm currently doing an Instagram challenge called the GREAT48. My first week kicked off fantastic but the weekend just ruined it! However I'm meal prepping today and the week ahead should be okay. The plan is to share all my tips as I go along and hopefully the before and after pic won't look the same at the end of the challenge.

Happy new year lovers have a great 2013.

Rihanna - Love Song (Ft. Future)

An evening rant!

What a long its been! I got to the gym at 06:50 am, the earliest I 've ever been in any gym. Thank God for a free gym at work, only seconds away from my desk. My main aim this week is to up my cardio and decrease my carbs.

After a shocking (not in a good way) weigh in last friday, I've decided to re-evaluate my weekend, diet!
Anyhows, work has been a stress ball as usual but I'm loving all the challenges and all the new things I am learning about myself. I love doing something that actually requires a bit of brain power!

Its coming up to the end of the year and as always it feels like reflection time. Things can always be worse so for the most part I am grateful. We don't have very long on earth to make life great. Take risks, live life, be you, make mistakes, keep learning..... Life is divine chaos. Embrace it.

Can I give it to my monkey?

It has been 3 weeks since Deborah released the video to her 1st song 'Uncle Obama' and the controversy still continues. I can't get the lyrics out of head, and I catch myself mouthing the words every now and again.

I haven't been able to figure out why people are enraged/upset with the song. Are they complaining about the content/ The suggestive lyrics/the actual singing?

The song hasn't offended me in anyway, in fact I quite like the song and as Ghanaian this song has neither made me proud or embarrassed. Its never that serious, there are several things that define us as a people........ a good sense of humour being one of them.

Uncle Obama's banana....YAY or NAY?

In attempts to curb bad eating habits I've been attempting to 'eat clean'. I haven't been following any special 'eat clean' diets just merely avoiding pre packaged meals and fizzy drinks.

For me eating clean means elimination additives, preservatives and extra sugars. This by no means an easy feat especially for someone who loves their diet coke. I can however say that by incorporating more fruit and veg and just generally fresher food into my diet I have noticed a spike in my energy levels, I sleep better and I don't get that super bloated feeling diet coke used to give me.

Eating clean is not easy but it does wonders for the body. Getting there....slowly but surely.

A Morning Rant!

Its been forever! Life has been stressful, new job! lost my hard drive, all my pictures, videos, writing, all of it! But I'm back, trying to collect some more memories, write some more and just keep going.

I've been attempting to get back on the health wagon even though I've been lacking motivation somewhat and temptation is rife at my new job! Lol. I feel like I'm constantly surrounded by treats and goodies.

I'm hoping to re-install my video editing software so I can vlog some more, I'm dying to try the cinnamon challenge...... I'm curious don't judge me!

The main for the next few weeks is to try and eat better, work out more and RELAX. Life gets so hectic sometimes we forget to just breathe. Don't be mad if I bombard this page with my healthy living attempts. I need to be held accountable! plus I've been feeling like a bit of a chef recently.

Oh and I neeeeeed a new phone desperately! C'est la vie.

Speak soon. Toodles.

Wales Baby!